Scribbles from my journal - 17

storm here, poured all night,
wind gales and strong rain,
i tossed and turned,
my sleep ran away......
something stirred within,
restless, waiting,
my heart beat in rhythm
to the universe breathing.......
something flowed within,
in rivers of trust and grace,
the wind seeped through,
like a lover, caressed my face.......
i melted, i dissolved, i only existed,
in rivulets, brooks and streams,
i poured hard, i moved fast,
to meet the ocean of my dreams,
one with the waves,
in still deep waters,
i rested and slept in peace......

Wondering.......

all paths lead to the center,
all experiences show the way,
of how we are meant to be......
i wonder - why then do we doubt,
instead of reaching out....
embracing, including others,
and journeying in joy together?

all the cells in our body change,
every 7 years our body renews,
not a single cell remains the same.......
i wonder - who are we?
who is it we hold on to so tightly?
why do we resist the flow,
when what has been, always goes?

there is no lack, nothing missing,
everything is as it should be.....
i wonder - what are we looking for,
all the time, high and low,
when we are already ashore....
why do we yearn, ache and long,
instead of simply singing our song?

i have wondered before,
i wonder again,
i knew the answers before,
yet i question again.......
it is a spiral we evolve upon,
and often i need to remember,
for often i forget as i walk on........

Sleepless at 2 am

 
the window is open
outside and in,
a bus on the road,
is a cell moving within,
where do i stop,
where do you begin?
is there a boundary,
separating me from this world?
or is it an illusion,
we refuse to give up?

time after time,
the same lesson learned
swirling up a spiral
of death and rebirth......
in this moment,
just as it is,
the uni-verse calls
and brings me to it,
this "it" which has
no need for a name,
it quietly lights,
and ignites the flame......

in my heart and mind,
body and soul,
all is one,
and as one flows..........

Listening......

life brings you in touch with your innermost needs
and aspirations in the most incredible way......

the divine moves and talks to you all the time,
through each encounter, every event, each and every day.........

it is as if the universe and every little bit in it answers your call......

if only we opened our hearts and really listened,
there would never be a sense of loneliness or lack at all........

Position

What you see depends upon where you are standing when you look at it.

I've been reflecting on how the position I operate from totally influences my perspective on things, people and the world.

Am I functioning from an inner state, or what I call "position" of Fullness or Lack?

And the difference between the two makes all the difference in life........

Creation......

song by song, wave by wave,

dance with me night and day,

hear the music i hear, feel the moves i feel,

together we'll find our way........

i hold and bestow all melodies,

i flow in this river that flows,

throw your rays upon my path,

let me shine bright in your glow.......

you are the purusha witnessing life,

i am the swirling shakti,

step by step and beat by beat,

we become shiv parvati.......

the earth our ground, the sky our home,

the ocean our playing field,

with our smiles and grace, this world is born

as we love and sow our seeds.......

Letting go.......

this is a time of break ups and breakthroughs,

of closing old books that are read and done,

chisel away what is no longer essential,

embrace the story that has begun......

rusted patterns of hurt and dismay,

a loop going round and round,

sometimes one needs to slash it all,

and patiently wait for rennaisance.....

some who we think are close to us,

are sometimes not which is alright too,

it is not always about working on oneself,

sometimes one needs to simply cut through......

never easy to let go of people, 

always believed i had to try more,

i resisted and i persisted,

sometimes it is wiser to walk out the door.......

i can choose to learn my lessons,

through joys instead of pain,

growth lies in sunny moments,

not always in cold and rain.......

sometimes one needs to say no,

make space for the yes to flow,

no to connections with no aspirations,

yes to the ones that make you soar.........